Only in America would this happen. I’ve got news for these kids, and for you: Everyone should be encouraged to do things that make them uncomfortable (within the bounds of propriety, of course), or even things that scare them witless (within the bounds of reason, of course). This practice leads to personal growth. Try it, you just might like it.
It’s hard to stop pontificating once you get going, so, I beg you also to remember that we humans are pathetically poor at predicting what will make us happy. Try this: stop thinking about what you want. Instead, think about what kind of person you want to be, in your most idealistic, wildest dreams. Then think about what would be best for you.
If your ideal self reads well in English, you will need to practice doing so as often as you can. You could do worse than The Atlantic, which seems to offer a whole lot of good content for free.